fuck this job.com

"Are you having a good day?" asked the IT administrator "because I am afraid I am about to spoil it." Then I was given my ten days notice.

It was all professional enough: "sorry, but no projects exist for you to work on right now", "we are very happy with your work.." &etc. I made it easy for her by being blase, it's no problem, that's fine, and so on. But really I was thinking along these lines "Huh? Seems there's loads of work to me. It's money you don't have. And you don't have it because all your projects are overbudget and staffed by consultancy contractors at twice my rate. So pick the correct excuse, why don't you?" "Got to find another contract quickly!" And also inchoate rage "You C*NT! I never liked you anyway"

People are tribal by nature. Once you've been anywhere for a while you want to be part of the group. You don't want them to push you out. Even if you hate the job! Even if you hate the people! Even if you are a contractor not an employee! Because after 18 months you know everyone and feel like you have a place in their world. Being expelled from a group is a painful experience.

Angst over now. I've had time to get to terms with the situation. The contract market is OK, so I've nothing to fear. I have saved some money so a few months out is no big problem. If they tried another one of their death's row reprieves on me, like they have before, I wouldn't take it now. I think. Hope not to put that one to the test.

But being terminated ... it hurt!