fuck this job.com

Why does the world have to be so fucking ridiculous? I'm smart, I work hard, I try my best, I've worked since I was 16, and here I am, 25 with a BA, broke and unemployed. I don't know how my rent will be paid after this month. My parents have to pay my car insurance. Temp agencies have nothing for me (even though I'm bilingual, have 1 1/2 years full time office/customer service experience, know MS Office like the back of my hand and type 75 wpm). The call center I applied at a while back won't let me apply for 6 months because I "withdrew" my application. The idiots called me one day out of the blue asking if I wanted to take an employment test that weekend and I said not at that time because it looked like I had another opportunity that I wanted to take. They are ALWAYS hiring people!

I could get a job working my ass off doing retail or restaurant work, but then I wouldn't have enough to keep all my medical bills from going to collections, and keep paying on my credit card (yep, I'm also in a nice amount of debt). Plus, then I won't get to see my family for Christmas because I KNOW they'd have me working every day but Christmas (I've done both jobs during the holiday season) and I promised my boyfriend we could spend Christmas with his family because we spent Thanksgiving with mine, but seeing my family sometime near Christmas is important to me too. Plus, if I get a job in either one, I won't see my boyfriend ever because he works 5 am - 1:30 pm with Saturdays off. I doubt I'd get a good day shift as a newbie (and even if I did at a restaurant, I wouldn't make any money!)

I would consider moving in with my parents even, but they've already converted my old bedroom and they live 80 miles away, which virtually guarantees no time with the boyfriend - plus my dad worries too much and would never allow me to drive my old car that far.

I need some decent money now. I don't know what to do. Maybe I'll buy a mega millions ticket and hope karma is on my side.

Seven years ago, when I had just started college (on an academic scholarship because my ACT was 32 on the first try), I would have never thought this is how things would go. I probably would have dropped out right then and there.