I just don't know what to do anymore

Just when I think maybe things are getting a bit better I get hit upside the head with a sledgehammer. I've been working for this bitch for more than 3 years now. Why? because I spent 2 years actively looking for another job in my field and I burnt out with there was nothing out there. Not to mention that all confidence in my abilities has been completely buried under a ton of shit, not seeing the light of day at all.

Unfortunately it's the nature of my job to hear only the things that go wrong. If things go right I don't hear a thing because nobody can tell I fixed anything. I'm constantly asked if I ever check my work, constantly nagged to do things that aren't my immediate responsibility but because someone else misses something it becomes my responsibility. Essentially I'm not to trust that anyone else can do their job right and it's ultimately my responsibility. Fine, then pay me more and let me do the whole damn thing myself. That way I know it'll be done correctly and you can stop assuming that I don't know what the hell I'm doing.

Not only this, but my judgement is constantly in question. I have a certain number of people on my staff each day and am able to get things done. Yet when there is something that she thinks is important to her career then I don't know shit and I need extra people on. But when I concede and ask more people to come in she complains that they're not doing anything. She blows little things into gigantic proportions and makes everybody crazy. Why the hell does she think that 60% of her staff has left since she was hired. Oh... and she won't replace anyone that 's has left so we can save money.

I'm just so fucking tired of everything being my fault and responsibility. They don't pay me enough for that.

I hate this shit


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Submitted by mad as hell on Mon, 11/15/2004 - 01:16.

Okay I have only been with this company for about 4 months,
and retail customer service stinks and so does the hourly pay.
There are so many anal retentive rules and procedures and polices
that they suffocate anything that will make the job easier and more
productive. I am looking for something else, where at least maybe
I can have some control( not the bitch boss and I don't want to be
a manager).The other day the operations manager said to me." your
not the boss." Yes I know I told her, I am just trying to make the
customer happy. This company is expanding, but the computer systems
are antiques, the amount of paperwork is counter-productive.

Gee I feel a little better now. The old saying, when a fish stinks
it stinks from the head down couldn't apply more to this company.

The way companies look at workers now-is hey we give you a paycheck
well I have found that in the last year, there have been several
customer service departures, because they all went on to something
better. Corporate America!! And no, I don't want to work for an
ego maniac like Donald Trump. I did have a job that for the most
part I loved: I had this job for 15 years and then MERGER and then
the foreign company that owned it-SOLD IT. So I was out of work for
7 months and then found a job in the garment industry. Well I made
the mistake of asking for a little more money and their attitude
was since we know you are going to leave, you have 2 months to look
for another job. DID I SAY I HATE CORPORATE AMERICA. One day these
people might see what unemployment is like and making a shit salary.

Okay this is almost as good as taking my Xanax.

Submitted by mad as hell on Mon, 11/15/2004 - 01:36.

YES.You are damned if you do and damned if you don't. I sometimes
get a small compliment if something goes right, but right now I
feel my days there might be numbered. Maybe I don't know. I am
bored, I can't concentrate and I can't understand why others seem
to have more to do-I always get my work done quickly.

Try to just do what I am going to try: just don't care. Follow the
dumb ass procedures and keep your mouth closed. And make sure your
resume is really updated at all times.

Submitted by b0ss1sab1tch on Fri, 08/04/2006 - 17:32.

Why is it that I have to do my job and everyone else's. If I'm doing their job in addition to my own, then pay me their salary and mine. And oh by the way, there's this thing I have called a personal life. Maybe if you got reaquainted with yours you wouldn't be such a bitch. I would just love if a company would, for once, address the real problem at hand. If you continously piss off your client because your engineers don't know what the hell their doing, then find some engineers that do, instead of hiring more managers. There are too many damn foremen and not enough qualified bricklayers. I hate this job, as soon as another comes along I'm quitting.

Submitted by ProfessionalToilet on Fri, 04/20/2007 - 03:11.

Couldn't agree more! You just summed up my current situation as well!!!

Submitted by buttwiper on Sat, 02/26/2005 - 14:15.

Know just how you all feel! I have been looking for a new job as a bartender for 2 years now. Quit as a bartender and waitress to go to work full time as a fuckin' CNA after 9-11 when the tips were down and the moron owner of the restaurant I was working for hired this sexist piece of shit as her newest manager to make my life hell. I know I can do the job of bartender, and quite well. I'm also a fast typist and I'm an EMT with IV and ECG certification. (Hint: this field is saturated!) I start feeling really down on myself and end up with a bottle in front of me--which is still better than a frontal lobotomy! I really want to quit my job, but in this economy, you can't. So like Mad as Hell says, just don't care. You can't care. Or the bastards will grind you down for sure!
If this was the 90's, we could quit our shit ass jobs and have a new one within a month. But it ain't. So we're stuck. And it SUX! I wish you people luck.
Peace,
CH

Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Tue, 03/01/2005 - 06:47.

It's nice to see that I am not the only person here who is getting shit on at work. I feel like I do everything my boss asks, but it is NEVER GOOD ENOUGH!!! I don't think she realizes that people are not motivated when you treat them like shit! She is always breathing down my neck...I can't take it anymore!!!

As I hopped in the shower this morning I just broke down. I am so fucking miserable. The only thing that is keeping me there is my tuition reimbursement; one I get my MBA I am out of there!

Thanks for listening everyone.

Submitted by suz104 on Fri, 11/04/2005 - 23:08.

I remember dreading going to work. I actually had a coworker who mentally terrorized me because of her bipolar-like personality and yelling spells. I would feel incredibly tense whenever I had to walk near or by her office, and mind you, I had to do this at least 8 times per day. Anyway, I recall just hating all aspects of work. The mornings would be worst. God knows how many times I'd wake up before my alarm went off and thinking, "I wonder what's she gonna do to me next..." Anyway, I hope you can remain at this place without any more increased chaos.

Submitted by Kipp J on Wed, 11/09/2005 - 05:00.

1-800-638-0753

Submitted by majikmissi on Thu, 03/23/2006 - 15:38.

I take Xanax to cope, as well as other perscription pleaseures. :)

Submitted by gottabehappy on Tue, 03/01/2005 - 17:24.

We are not alone. I cried 6 days ago so bad and walked out of my office and never returned. I still can't believe I did it. Since that day I have felt alive again, I can breath, no back pain, no headache, no feeling hopeless so it had to be the best medicine in the world. Medical insurance company's would love to know this. What a way to have less claims? Have them walk out of a job they hate. Now....how do I get unemployment? The boss made me cry and get upset and I did not plan to walk out sooo?

Submitted by Kipp J on Wed, 11/09/2005 - 05:01.

1-800-638-0753

Submitted by brensgrrl on Wed, 03/30/2005 - 06:09.

When you said that your judgement is constantly in question, you hit a sympathetic nerve with me. Management where I work is always looking for someone to blame and guess who's it?

It seems to be easier to question my judgement than to admit that any upper manager has ever made any mistakes.

I think that I know how you feel.

Submitted by DoIlookLikeIgiv... on Sat, 06/11/2005 - 15:57.

Sounds like you need to get out of there. The last job I had that made me feel like that (I used to feel physically ill as soon as I pulled into the parking lot) I managed to get fired from. If I had been smart and not in a state of temporary insanity, I would have done what several co-workers suggested before it happened...go to a doctor and get stress leave. When its that bad (and it was bad) you need to make a change before it gets worse. When it affects the quality of your life to that extent, anything you can do to get out is a good idea. I did it the wrong way last time.
Basically I think all office jobs are the same, all companies are the same...same show, different cast of characters. Same shit different pile.
Look after yourself because ultimately no one else is going to.

Submitted by mrdubious on Thu, 01/26/2006 - 02:21.

I agree with you. I work for a predominent, bankrupt U.S. airline (guess who)...And I finally went for relief in the way of family leave. I have been diagnosed with sever depression along with anxioty and panic attacks. I have hated what I do for 10+ years(been fly'n 23 yrs) and can't find anything to replace it with so I keep flying. Pay cuts, management harrassment for sick time useage and so on... Managemnet just doesn't get it. We all would like to see the whole freak'n place just close their doors and screw all of them (mangmnt). But then they'll go out and screw someone else. Hope they burn in hell! along with their $15 million in bonuses. BASTARDS. What goes around comes around. Bad Carma's a bitch!

Submitted by madashell on Thu, 01/26/2006 - 04:48.

I hope you are taking something to calm you down considering you fly a plane...I understand your line of work is hard to replace, and so is the paycheck--But it is scary to also think our pilots are anxious and depressed...

Submitted by amycl on Thu, 01/26/2006 - 07:33.

I hope you are taking something to calm you down considering you fly a plane...I understand your line of work is hard to replace, and so is the paycheck--But it is scary to also think our pilots are anxious and depressed...

Submitted by Anita Newjob on Fri, 07/29/2005 - 02:12.

The worst place ever is Brightpoint. They hire you right out of college (so they can pay entry level $), in other words poverty level and then they chew you up and spit you out. THAT IS THE WORST PLACE EVER, DO NOT WORK THERE UNLESS YOUR GOOD AT SUCKING UP. They got the H.R. guy from hell there, trust me. He is the biggest asshole you will ever meet. A former friend works there and she turned out to be a real bitch, she fits right in! If your company buys from them - I feel sorry for you (hope you aren't waiting for credit on a product return-you aren't gonna get it) As for the rest of you, join the club of suckassjobs in America -they are out there waiting for you! Take care all of you job haters, hang in there because another shit job is just waiting for you!

Submitted by beledat on Tue, 08/09/2005 - 19:49.

So many butt heads its unreal...I hate my job too! Tech Support for Software comp and the Mofos I deal with all day are computer geek assholes. They look at you like you have the intelligence of a doorknob and I am fucking sick of it! FUCK OFF you NERD!!!! Like they are some fucking superior beings. HA HA , I think it is hysterical the way they over compensate for the UGLY ASS GEEK Boy looks thier parents passed on to them.... And forget about Women Computer Geeks, oh shit they are the worst! One in particular foreign asshole, she needs a slap, many slaps. BITCH, Step off! And the project assistant who thinks shes a computer geek but is just a grezzy waitress in disguise....FUCK THEM ALL!!!!

There is a good side to this blog, in just 17 short days I will awaken from this nitemare. Yea I am outta here! 6 months of this JOKE OF A JOB is enough for me....Rather be broke and stave thaten to deal with this shit any longer!!!!! I AM FREE!!!

Submitted by FWood on Mon, 06/19/2006 - 00:44.

Gotta love how some people see techs as "God like" or "worthless grunts," just because they don't get what we do. The best is to have it happen in the same damn conversation.

Submitted by Kipp J on Wed, 11/09/2005 - 04:59.

1-800-638-0753

Submitted by Baz on Mon, 10/23/2006 - 21:59.

I have a really high profile job that I just can't stand anymore. I was drowning in the hopelesness of my situation, for a long time my Sunday blues started on Friday night with tears over a bottle of wine. BUT I'M GETTING OUT! I took an opportunity to grow that was handed to me on a plate and in doing so I have started to make things happen for myself that I didn't know were possible for me a year ago. I now have my own buisness that I have grown whilst in my job and it's just starting to pay me enough so I can leave.

Believe in yourself you can do it too - check out www.successuniversity4life.co.uk

Keep smiling :o)
Baz

Take control at www.successuniversity4life.co.uk

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Submitted by Zippidy on Mon, 06/25/2007 - 18:57.

I think no matter how bad your day at work is going mine is probably going just as bad! Take comfort in that please.

Submitted by f8_smyled on Thu, 07/12/2007 - 22:05.

It's a plot, I'm convinced. The pharm companies are getting paid because all of us corporate workers are so friggen depressed working for mindless bitchy people that are mis-hires in the first place. Of course, if a mis-hire hires a mis-hire, well, that's self-explanatory.

But seriously--kids didn't always have ADD. They acted up and they got slapped and punished, right? Now, we have lazy parents and teachers that don't want to discipline their kids, so they give them a pill--all better!

We are being treated like that. Think of the millions of $$$ pharm companies are getting selling anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications to over-worked, under-paid Americans. I think it's a conspiracy.

You can't win people... If you fight the injustice at work, you get fired. If you stand there and take it, you have to go on meds. What the fuck is going on nowadays? There's no time for relaxation. There's no time to even THINK about relaxation. How are we supposed to enjoy life, friends, and family when we're all so stressed out and poor that the only thing we have energy to do is vent on a website like this?

Capitalism seems to have a nasty backlash that no one anticipated. We'd probably benefit from returning to a pastoral lifestyle where we were all responsible for working our own land, growing our own food, getting time in the sun, working our bodies (that'd put a stop to the obesity epidemic, and increase endorphins which means--no more meds!), and riding horses instead of using fossil fuels to propel us.

Oh, who am I kidding? We've all been completely spoiled by creature comforts. We must trudge on in this endless sea of mind-numbing work days so we can afford to spend whatever free time we have with our loved ones. **sigh**

f8_smyled

Submitted by Bonita on Thu, 07/26/2007 - 13:12.

Um, word.

I would only add that more and more people find themselves having no free time and possibly no loved ones. Don't tell me that dismal social conditions don't have a lot to do with America's 50, 60 70 hour per week - corporate culture. More than half of all marriages tank, singles in their late 20's and 30's are gonna' find themselves terminally single, kids rarely have even one parent they see on a normal basis, and most adult Americans claim they don't even have one friend! (I'll try to find the link about a study on that last little comment).

Submitted by MichaelBrown on Mon, 10/29/2007 - 04:42.